I posted this on my old blog during the summer and realised no one had probably seen it; so here it is again 🙂
It’s funny how life takes its twists and turns; it can lead to unexpected places. This has always been true of my life in general and now also my crafting journey.
Three years ago I picked up a hook and some yarn and attempted to learn to crochet. I am normally quite impatient with myself when learning anything and my concentration has never been good, but I persevered and eventually I found I could do a simple granny square and that was it, I had the crochet bug. Since then I haven’t looked back and I’ve enjoyed constantly challenging myself. I took a leap of faith and was rewarded.
My challenges started as small things, my first toy, my first blanket and so on. After a while I realised I was lonely in my crafting and I had no ‘real life’ friends who shared my love of crochet and crafts in general. So I decided to challenge myself again and start a YouTube channel. It was a very slow and rocky start and I did give up for a while, but my need to share and connect remained, so I tried one final time in the hope something would change. It was the best decision I’ve made. Since then my channel has grown, I have been blessed with more ‘online craft friends’ than I could have hoped for and whom have been beyond kind and generous towards me. And I am no longer lonely.
I have now found myself needing a new challenge. So after allowing fear of being rejected, of being ‘not good enough’ and self-doubt in general to conquer me for a while, I have fought back. This has been, and always is, my biggest challenge. I suffer from crippling anxiety and depression, which has endured for years. Sometimes the black dog wins, but I always fight back. I have fought hard to overcome it to achieve a goal I set myself and now I am proud to say I have succeeded! I have finally created my own crochet pattern. It is a fairly simple pattern, but you have to start somewhere don’t you?!
I have taken a ‘leap of faith’ in the hope that I can not only achieve something I have worked hard for, but most importantly that it will bring joy and happiness to others. Life cannot get better than that!
You can find my pattern at https://www.ravelry.com/patterns/library/reflection-cross-stitch-cushion
Until next time
Stay True to Yourself